I have been alone. Well, I believe that I've been alone. It's so hard to tell when people are supporting you or not. It gets hard to tell if you have anyone left to be there for you.
I lost a great friend, but I don't know when I lost her. I don't know when I lost either of them.
What did I do to drive them away?
People grown up and move on, I know, but did I really mean so little to you? I was by your side through everything for more than 10 years. You at least pretended to care back then.
I'm trying. Apparently, no one sees that.
I am so stressed and anxious. All I need is one good friend to talk to. No. Instead, I have to be reliant on fucking pills to stop my emotions. I can literlly feel myself going down a dark road. I know what is happening to me.
I just don't care anymore.
